1….i really want to own my house. a small little cottage with a deck. my neighbor like a mile away.
(i don’t want to live in a tight neighborhood) fenced in property so my dogs and Ion can run around.
an acre or at least enough room so i can plant a couple fruit trees.
2….yes fruit trees. i want an orchard. and live off the fruits. possibly make extra cash from them. also have a plant nursery or just have a lot of food being grown so i can be sustainable.
3….somewhere up in the mountain or at least somewhere safe and away from water if there’s ever (hopefully never) a tsunami.
4….i really need to pay off all my loans tho lol
Hmmm are my priorities outta line? Why is it so hard to find just me and you time? Why is it so fucken hard?!! I sacrifice everyone just to go and hang out with you but it’s just so easy for you to make plans with someone else. I cancel plans just to be with you. So unreal. Idk and first thing you do when you wake up is call your mom to come and pick you up?! Wtf I’m off bitch!! Is it that urgent that you wanna go hang out with your mommy than just hang out with me?!! I just wanna kill myself reflecting on all this. Sure I coulda gone with you but you didn’t tell her that. And we have our car it’s not like we can just say oh can you drop us off too. Fuck Idk maybe you’re just too damn dependent on her. Maybe I’m not the one for you. You obviously don’t like me enough to be around.
I try to look at everything optimistically, but end up with sarcastic, moody, rude, and judgemental vibes. Then it just rubs off on me and I get insecure and..down.
Seriously what is up your ass?! And I don’t know if you’re being fake or real. Why even make friends with people you just met?
Stupid customer service industry I hate you
Debbie downer status
Car payment and all these unnecessary bills keep piling up. Fuck!! And it doesn’t really help with me spending money I don’t have!! Whyyyyyyy must I be such a consumer. It wouldn’t have gotten this bad if I worked those 2 weeks. It’s a good thing that it’s getting busy at work